Ain't a Rock Star anymore, just a Rock "Pussy".

Previously was not as bad as it sound.....NOW.
End of April is bad!!
Start of May is real bad!!
The whole month of May is real real bad!!!!


Now it's bad enough.

More to come.

But let's just finish step by step.

We'll go through it together.

And I'll help as much as i can before the month of July.

C.K.

Madness Ground.

Two nights of madness brain spinning.
Two days of sleepness day.
Two and half is done.
It will be created soon.
I still somehow feel its not perfect.
but i guess that's the purpose.
To have it more blur
and leaving it as a vivid image in the frames.


It's never enought for me.

Mother Nature.

It's the battle of time between the rock and the water.

"The battle of soft and hard."

The rock will just be station at the same place for years

And the water will just rush pass the rocks,

and continue to flow out of the big area.

But the water can never get through into the rocks.

And i'm just the rocks...

Chickly - chick - chick - boom

It was never been easy for anyone.

During school times, having maths problem and

we as classmates solved the numbers together.

That's called team work or should i say

making use of each other?

It's been years we graduated and i've never regretted

like what you said. NEVER!!

It was all the grand times we had.

I know it's going to be hard for you.

But hang in there, and always remember you have your family, friends and

me.

2 years down the road,

how many more to go?

i've made my mistake, please pardon me.

Years down the road.

You mother f***er, please get your plates cleaned up

and return it to the rightful owner and not me cleaning up your arse for you

and not turning back to see who cleaned your arse.

I want this and that..it's complicating and i'm just contradicting myself.

I guess you are too. So, stop being wishy washy about everything and dig the things

you always wanted and please pick up the tissue you've just dropped.

C.K.

Shopping mall

What is like?
I guess we all only know who we like the most.
And i guess there are no definition and reasons to it.
We can say "i love you still." ," i love you as a friend" or whatever love-like shit.
I've played your game and now it's time to play mine.
Many people will say that they like or love their friends, be it guys or girls, but the inner voice of yours, who is true down deep?
Questions are asked and answers are repiled, messages are passed and news are notified.

I can understand because i've empathy.
But no soft tissue will be issued to you.

It is either you don't appreciate it or you really appreciate it and i'm like a clown continuing to conduct my show.
The show to entertain people have two feelings, they will get the fun of the laughter and i will get the pain in my smile.
I lived in my own world with plans and hopes, you do too.
I'll walk the alley with darkness and shine lights, you too.
But i'll try to meet you at the end of line with sweets you will find.
Life's like shopping mall, you get up to the highest level to get what you wanted, but no matter what happen you will still need to get down inorder to get out of the mall. And some other days, will be ended up at the highest level again and it's like a cycle.


So, the sweets in both our hands,
I might not like yours....

C.K.

We all have things that trouble us
As times goes by, it will multiply.
And at the same time, it will decrease as we try.



We will have a pain in our ass
It's not easy, but it will get cleverer
Inside is something we are asking for.



Some have sickness unknown
And the girl in white told me "No,
just keep on walking, till your legs die on you."



Here i am resting for recovery
All i'm left is empathy



Here we won't know the answer
I'll just sit here silently
for you to reply.

C.K.

Title:

The world is yours now,
You have the teeth of a tiger and
The eye of the eagle,
You are able to take care of yourself in the urban area.
Those beautiful flowers will lead you the way.
There's nothing to cry about,
Just insert a few coins and you'll get your favourite toy.


So rest assured, and leave ur hands to the yourself
and you control the game.
We can always lead you,
but the controller is still in your hands.
You're like the bird injured...
So now your wings are cured with magical oilment.
Fly, Fly, Fly...
To the place you always wanted.

C.K.

The story of Valerie..........................

.....i smiled and my eyes are full of tears. I saw her black brown eyes and her beautiful smile and i hug her without any hesitation. I asked her, " Where have you been this few days?" She just replied with her laughter. This time i will never let her go, i will hold her hands tight or even carry her to the amusement park. So we walked down the street and finally arrived at the entrance of the amusement park. I bought her the biggest candy floss and tell her to let me know if she wants another. And a big smile was answered and i brought her to all the rides she wanted to be in. We had a great time and when it's time, i brought her to the tasties and fastest fast food restaurant. With big pound burgers, extra large fries and frizzy ice coke, we took our time and enjoyed the meal. During the whole process, she din speak a word. Just enjoying every second of the time and smiling while having the burgers in her mouth. That is enough for me to feel satisfied. After the meal, she wanted some ice cream, so i brought her Ben & Jerry. She had the two scope vanilla and i had a one scope, my teeth can't take that much. We headed off and i asked her, " Where do you live at?" She just replied with a smile, oh my god, i can't resist her smile, it's so beautiful even her eyes are smiling. So we just walked down the street, and walked past shop houses with dim lights and her hands just give up on mine. I saw her dropped to the ground and the vanilla ice cream was just right beside her. I was stunned and did not know what to do.

And i realised that the vanilla was painted in red..............................

C.K.

........The story of Valerie

.........I turned and saw a piece of paper on the ground and i picked it up. It was the picture of the amusement park with full of colours and her pretty, cute little face keeps appearing in my mind like flashes. At the first moment, we were so neutral and i being so cruel for just negelecting her, the next moment, i'm sitting on the benches along the street having a feeling of not being responsible and not being thoughtful enough. Although she is a nobody to me, but i somehow feel a connection between the both of us. I really wanna go round looking for her but if that's the case, have you ever thought of that maybe Valerie had decided to give up on the trip to her dreamy amusement park? that's the reason why she left me with just a photo of her dreams? She's a nobody to me and is giving me this kind of responsibility to stress myself for nothing...

I waited at the same place for hours till the sun die on me. Darkness is eating me up and the coldness is breaking through my skin. My legs can't wait for me so it leads me back home by itself and asking me to move on and stop waiting on the ground. I kept the card in my pocket and carry on with my walk. I grab a cup of hot coffee to just warm myself up and sit at the most comfortable seat that i will be in whenever i have any peas in my brain.

It's another new chapter in my book. I keep having a feeling that i did not take good care of a little girl. I dont noe why, but i keep thinking about Valerie. Now i really wanna take her to the most exciting amusment park and buying her the biggest candy floss. I keep walking pass the place where i lost her and wonder if she's my child, my mom is going to just kick me out of the house. But that's not only the connection i have between Valerie, there are more to it.

This few days, i din even go to work and keep walking past the place.

"Amusement Park.....Candy floss....Burger....!!!"

"??!!??" It's some familier voice to my soft ears coming from my back. And suddenly i felt the famlier pull on my soft clothes. And again i turned back..........

C.K.

Swimming in a pond.

Dream, dream, dream is something that happens when eyes are closed and minds in rest. In email, death and funerals are asking you to let go of something, an attitude? an old relationship? or things that is hanging by the rope? Bascially, i dreamt about the death of my brother and i woke up crying. Seriously, i cried and wet my pillow and this shows that he is important to me.

But is it that i gotta give up and let go on something? that i will be crying for? and is important to me?

C.K.

The story of Valerie

Some where in London, i get to know little creature name Valerie. At first i din even want to bother about her, but she keep pestering me to keep her accompany. She wants to go to the most exciting amusement park in town and wanting to have the biggest candy floss in her hands and the fastest fast food restaurant in london. I just rejected her and went on with my own way, that did not stop her from quittting. I went from houses to houses and even went to wine shop for a glass of chilled sauvigon blanc. She followed and never even make a sound, just showing me the picture of the amusement park. It really makes me ponder why is she doing this to me and herself. When i walk out of the shop, she continued to pull my shirt and allowed me to lead the way. I decided that she might just lost her way or being just ignorant, i bring her to the amusement park and going to leave her there, but half way through the routh, there isn't any tension on my shirt. When i turned back...........................................................

C.K.

The clown that juggles.

In or out of picture?

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Just when i thought i would be able to handle it like a hero

in those kind of coloured comic books.

It's just basically two things done after each other like placing

one in the front and the other at the back.

Things went out smoothly and there isn't any hurdles like running

the 100m hurdles race when i was younger.

It strikes me when she asked whether i'm able to juggle like the clown

in the cirlces who is smiling from start to the end.

It's tiring and texting but colours are beautiful like the flowers

in your garden with bees busy with their work.

I walk towards my dreams and quietly i'll let you walk like the king

in his kingdom with all the knights ready by your side.

Eventually, i'll write a story of your glorious journey like no body does.

C.K.

As requested.

Life is complicated,

I very much hope for what i want

But you'll just say "Work Hard!"

What you don't know is that

I want that flower that's planted in your room

It will not die,

It'll just open up for the sun to shine.

Time is always faster than you

So stop and rest

Might get you some tips for bus.

Just take a swing with me

And chat till the night falls

We might find something new and fresh

So please, don't strike me off your list.

C.K.

Got draw. But camera not in hand.

Actually i have a die hard fan. a so called "die hard fan" who reads my blog everyday. that's what she told me. i'll just believe it. but who will read such an emo blog (said by some others)? hmm...i'm just wondering do u guys just wanna more drawings or did actually read what i'm writing and trying to say.. but anw i'm really honoured to have a "die hard fan".haha. that's really something i have achieved. haha. woah..like some big shot ar.haha. i did one drawing but my camera is not with me.so maybe when i got my camera back den i'll upload it. it's still the same. it's hands again..but this time i think it's called the Hand Series. haha.
I really wanna thank you. :)

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New things every now and then.

Will it be something i'm able to hold on to?

I'm lying down and be quiet.

If only there's a shade for me to lie on

Listen to my own and not others.

In my own world, with lots of stars and torns

I'm with idiot box and noisy box.

Trap in a much larger box satisfying ourselves

There are many hands for you to hold.

When you fall, i'm definitely one of them in there

I'll make my hands with lots of colours and signs,

So you'll be able to notice it once you need it.

C.K.