Love Hurts

It does not matter whether love is there for you

or you looking for it.

It's whether you can handle it well even you don't have it.

Finally

One day is all it takes to make me feel so much more hatred.
I've said too much about the matter and nobody really seems interested about it, so i'm not going to say much about it.
But I've always thought that by doing your own field will be good enough.
But never there's a time when you can please everyone.

There's never a time where you'll be sitting at the hill top.
But somewhere there will be just fine.
Never be in the middle, where you have to answer to the top and bottom at the same time.
Talking about that seems like we the living personnel are facing.

Everything just went past so fast like a short term memories syndrome.
Just one day, so fast and rush making all blood vessel swollen like a population of my blood cells were squeezed in a train.
I didn't want to care about anything at that moment and just wanted to be alone.
But it just didn't worked out.

I dive into the shallow pool and control my buoyancy for a few seconds.
Maybe i'm lack of air that's why everything seems so clear in my mind.
For a second i thought i'm related to Poseidon, but that's too much, last warning.
I just can't wait for my diving trip where a place that can make feel so much more like home.
And it just relax my mind off everything, at least for the few days.

That's what humans like, escaping from the reality for a moment and hoping that it will never come back.
Or should i say adults?
Haa. can't believe myself saying "adults" the moment i type it.
That moment really strike me that i'm becoming one soon.

23 doesn't seems too young or old.
But certain aims and things are to be done.
Inorder to answer to certain people.

Back

Hunger in the hot night.
With no access to the fridge.

Little clouds that we flood on

When it's getting nearer,

it just seems longer.

But soon it will be the end.

Looking back and forth,

it's never ending for us, men.

My path is going to start soon in a week time.

Which path will i choose doesn't really concern you.

So just fuck off and let me carry on.

Crying out loud for the world.

To give me the strength i need.

To overcome the obstacles i see.

Not only me facing the cruel society.

Thousands of them are walking beside me.

C.K.

Admiration

Your eyes are an undiscovered ocean far away

Any minute now keeping

Both poets and priests at bay

Don't get ahead of me

Could we just this once see eye to eye?

Could you want perhaps me?

Ask me how it feels to vie

night thoughts

Me sitting here under the moon
Thinking about the dream I dreamt this morning.

Sleeping seems so scary now.
The last time I checked,
It have been months I last dreamt.

It suppose to be over
And it doesn't seems enough to hold the urge sometimes.

I.....

It's the same distance.

Under those lines of truthful words,
There's a lie hidden in it,
Just to make me and you feel better.

It's the same for the both of us.
Here I'm writing about you.
There you writing about the other.
It's like a cycle.

We can be different like you said.
Base on the words, it seems not.
I've read and understood.
It's not that different at all.

You can say whatever you want.
But deep down inside you, you know.
So stop lying.

For me it looks like a fake closure
Same goes for you for your case.
Accept it, my friend.

C.K.